Tuesday, 23 March 2010 ; 面具(mask)

many people do not know what this(mask) means to me and some people. to me, it is a way to face people i do not know or do not want to face. some may say i am a coward but lets face it, who does not do this when facing people they do not know??? but to keep the mask on around people that care about you, that will cause them to worry as you are not yourself. for example, when one is in trouble or not in a good mood, people that care will ask "what happen?" or "are you alright?" without fail. but wif the mask on, all you will answer is a "nothing (:" or "i am alright". if they know you well enough, they will not be fooled as they know you well enough to sense something is not right. thus they will feel worried for you and the more you deny it, the more helpless they will feel as they cannot share the burden of your trouble. so please, share with people that really care about you and relieve them of the agony to guess what is wrong or what is going on. this way, you will feel more relaxed and will not be stressed up so easily.

the most important thing that i want to say in this post today is, you are a gift from the heavens to your parents and your parents took a great deal of effort to raise you from young till who you are today. they are always worried for you as to them, no matter how old you are, you are still a kid to them. this is how all parents think. when you have your very own child, you will surely do the same thing. the least you can repay them is to take good care of yourself and not to let them worry about you. they are already very tired from a day of work and to think they still have to tolerate whatever nonsense you are doing, how much can a human body and mind take??? even with all that exhasution, they will never complain. so teasure them as they cannot be with you for your whole life. and to think with all their hard work, you went and did something bad or hurtful to yourself, how will they feel when they find out??? let me tell you. unless they are inhuman, they will surely be davestated and heartbroken. so do your parents a favour by doing yourself a favour, LOVE YOURSELF AND NEVER LET THEM BE HEARTBROKEN BY WHATEVER YOU ARE DOING. last but not least,whatever you are doing or thinking, they had already thought and done them before. so listen to their advise, it will only help but not harm you.

this is what i feel that every child alive should know whether you agree with me or not.

Labels: thought by Keng and Jo.

Keng TOTALLY RANTED at 01:03

Friday, 19 March 2010 ; 心情真的很低落

have not been home this few days , altenating between ang mo kio ave 10 and jurong east.oni went home to change nia. down wif flu till now and cough but getting better le thx to mum as she bot PANADOL FLU MAX for me. thx mum! cant quite rmb wad i did ytd but TODAY!, woke up at noon and went for lunch at amk market. after tat dwn to LFI and meet DON LEONG. didnt manage to close him today but nvm, there are plenty others. others dun nid to say le. now at jurong east agn, juz finish a bowl or black pepper instant noodles which was err, not quite filling. nth much le. tml duno going whr so see how tml ba.



to find someone that loves you or to be loved by someone is not an easy thing to achieve. take me for example. till now, still nt loved except for my parents of cause. so please to couples out there or couples to be, treasure each other and never doubt the love that you have for each other. never let negative thoughts play tricks on your mind. do not wait till when someone is gone and then come to regret as it is far too late. there is a chinese idiom "打铁趁热" which means to strike the iron when it is hot which means not to let and oppotunity slip by. lastly, never let past setbacks step you down as long as you learn from your mistakes, it is all worth it. being in a relationship is like an investment. if you are afriad to get hurt, you will nv succeed in love. so open up your heart to him/her and let them know how you feel.

Labels: unloved

Keng TOTALLY RANTED at 00:50

Tuesday, 16 March 2010 ; I am going crazy!!

Seriously, I am going bonkers. My flu is getting worse, nose is lyk a tap tat cannot be closed, throat damn itchy, coughing non stop. I FEEL LIKE TOTAL CRAP!!!!

Ytd, was at Jo de mama hse, we slp on he floor as his jiefu and jie came so the rm is theirs. His mum cook ba kut tea, yum yum, nice. But I was late as I went for my bike theory 1st. So end up reach at 10pm. Oh ya, sry hor sotong, ytd no time go Vivo find u. Nxt time k? Nxttime cfm go.

Today, Woke up at 11pm. Went to Amk meet Jo de primary sch classmate den off we go to East Coast Park. Reach le jiu go rent bicycle den cycle cycle cycle. 3 solid hours ok, stop oni to wait for the nt so fast de, if nt is non stop ok. Nw butt pain liao. So nw jam at Jo de hse. Lata going back jurong le!!! Post till here ba.

Labels: You dun wan to tok to me liao uh??? Saddieme

Keng TOTALLY RANTED at 20:39

Saturday, 13 March 2010 ; friends!

at home you have you family to relay on,
at work you have your coworkers to relay on,
but outside, who do you have??
thats right, you are only left with your friends.

this is a saying i believe in the most. uynles they are not worth my time, once a friend, always a friend.

yo peeps, i am back agn. this week was lyk a tape recorder, everyday was rili lyk repeating itself. wake up, peicai, jo hse, lfi. but i dun mind it. except for one day, someone dun wan friend me liao. i so sad la. but now shuld be ok le la. sotong nuer everyday oso entertain me de lo. haha. jo see oso laugh. k la, now wan go find jo liao. nxt time den update. byebye

Keng TOTALLY RANTED at 23:14

Sunday, 7 March 2010 ; Why must i see you again

After so long, when i alrdy can forget you, u reappear. of all places and of all times. why? why now. is singapore rili so small tat even lyk tat oso can link dao you? omg. not in much mood to post. so sry. bye.

Keng TOTALLY RANTED at 23:42

Saturday, 6 March 2010 ; Special Request!!

upon special request of someone, i am back to posting in english. this is wad happen in this few days.

i passed my RTT and now i am left wif 2 mre pract to TP! sadded my TP is lyk so freaking long away. it is on the 21TH OF APRIL!!! so damn long. good luck to me! ROFL

weekday mostly go dwn to PEICAI SEC!! on friday they still make me wait outside alone lo. thursday went to take pay frm SSC after meeting jo at his sch. the two twins kip bully me lo. kuku de lo. kip say i fierce, den say wad i wear one ring arnd my neck and one on my finger very funny....... sad die me sia, i wan go corner emo liao.D: ohya, i got a new "Girlfriend" tat is the crazy CHIA ZHENMI! lol kidding de la.

sat, which is ytd, went to novena agn and supper at buffet bee hoon. omg, the oil is so damn bloody much macham free lyk tat.

TODAY!
woke up at 12pm and den coz sisi no chem book to study jo, di and i went dwn to serangoon to literally deliver it to her. den pei them go to their ah ma hse which is at hougang. ask zhenmi come dwn we tok cock. eatlunch at the coffeeshop thr den the two chiobu call agn. starting one say wan mmet jo for ipod. den after jo go, the other call and ask di to mama shop thr. end up we all go. LOL. nxt, go kovan make jo de glasses. he lyk a girl picking clothes la. pick one frame choose so long. after tat, got a crazy idea og going KTV. bastard lo, di nv sing de lo. all me and jo kio. now we both voice lyk damn sexy. now at jo hse going for food lata coz i am damn hungry! ok till here bye.

Labels: my sotong nuer is back

Keng TOTALLY RANTED at 23:19

Monday, 1 March 2010 ; 我真是失败

我对我自己彻底的失望，什么事情都做不好。感情失败，学业马马虎虎，财务方面跟是不用说了。关心她们她们就觉得你烦，不管太多就爬到你头上拉屎。说话语气重了一点，就说你凶然后跟你闹脾气。你们到底要我怎样？这也不行那也不行，很累的你们知道吗？拜托，我也是有肉有血的人，不是台机器人。
好当不当，当了我家的长子。我对弟弟的担心对他来说只是一群蚊子在他身旁再烦他。
我今年的考试能不能及格还是个大问号。别人读书我也读书，别人成绩好我的就一塌糊涂。这证明了什么？这就证明了问题出在我身上。

Labels: 我真的累了

Keng TOTALLY RANTED at 23:53